The music is playing, lights are twinkling on rooftops, everybody is just a bit nicer -it's Christmas time!
Early on in life Christmas was just about me! What am I going to get? What food am I going to eat? Will there be a lot of things? I asked all the usual questions.
Then later on I was invited to church by one of my life long friends - David. Now I haven't mentioned David yet, but he was a large part of my school-days. The complete opposite of me really. While i was dressed in my solid colored t-shirts, cardigans, and blue jeans, he was dressed in purple pants, cut-up t-shirts, a fossil (as in the dinosaur type) necklace, and shoes that look like hamburgers. While he was the type to have many friends (often for only a couple days at a time...), I was more likely to have only a handful. While he was only content around other people, I was just as happy to be alone. Yeah.... Opposites... Anyways... Back to the story! Like I said, he invited me to church when I was about nine years old. And I loved it! Loved these people who did nothing but sing and shout, clapping their hands all the time. I didn't know what was going on!
I found out later, and I became a Christian. I went with his family every Sunday and Wednesday until I was old enough to drive. But back to the point of this story. It was here at church where the actual meaning of Christmas was taught to me. And yes you have the normal church teachings of the nativity scene - the three wisemen that traveled there, the shepherds that saw the angels, and most importantly the birth of Jesus Christ Savior or Man. But I also learned about the simple joy of giving. I learned how to give with a free heart, and not expect anything in return. I learned that Christmas isn't about how many gifts you have under the tree, or about what's under those wrappings. It's about giving back. It's about sharing. It's about love.
- Jordan
As always - learn freely
Monday, December 24, 2012
Wednesday, December 19, 2012
Losing my Wisdom
The title of the post may lead you to think I am talking about losing wisdom in the figurative sense. However, I am really just talking about the four new holes in my mouth!
Thats right, I just got those little buggers called wisdom teeth cut out of my head.
And now I can feel my heartbeat in my face, I can't eat solid foods, and the left side of my face is still numb. But alas, it is okay, I feel fresh and invigorated today and I think a large part of this feeling is this new endeavor. This simple act of writing down the craziness in my head, has already greased the cogs in the machine I call a mind. New ideas, new outlooks, a new lease on life if you will. And I am excited! One of the biggest problems I have had in my life is self-motivation. I always set out with some grandiose plan, and thats what it is -- just a plan. I never can motivate my myself to put into action. Whether it be exercising and working out, eating healthier, studying for a test, writing a paper, or even just whitening my teeth -- I simply lack the motivation to follow through.
But this blog. This blog is a fresh start. Its time to give myself a stern talking to, a swift kick in the rear, and get to doing what I know I CAN do. Its time to stop letting excuses muck up my life. Its time to make a change.
So today I may have gotten my wisdom teeth removed; however, this blog came at just the right time for me to gain wisdom in the process.
I need this wisdom.
Hopefully I will put in to good use.
As always,
Learn Freely
-Jordan
Thats right, I just got those little buggers called wisdom teeth cut out of my head.
And now I can feel my heartbeat in my face, I can't eat solid foods, and the left side of my face is still numb. But alas, it is okay, I feel fresh and invigorated today and I think a large part of this feeling is this new endeavor. This simple act of writing down the craziness in my head, has already greased the cogs in the machine I call a mind. New ideas, new outlooks, a new lease on life if you will. And I am excited! One of the biggest problems I have had in my life is self-motivation. I always set out with some grandiose plan, and thats what it is -- just a plan. I never can motivate my myself to put into action. Whether it be exercising and working out, eating healthier, studying for a test, writing a paper, or even just whitening my teeth -- I simply lack the motivation to follow through.
But this blog. This blog is a fresh start. Its time to give myself a stern talking to, a swift kick in the rear, and get to doing what I know I CAN do. Its time to stop letting excuses muck up my life. Its time to make a change.
So today I may have gotten my wisdom teeth removed; however, this blog came at just the right time for me to gain wisdom in the process.
I need this wisdom.
Hopefully I will put in to good use.
As always,
Learn Freely
-Jordan
Tuesday, December 18, 2012
The Origin of the Name
There has been a lot of talk about blogging from my friends lately, and lo and behold -- here I sit writing yet another post that may end up lost in the dark catacombs of the internet. A single drop of water in the vastness that is the ocean. Still, I keep typing.
Is it the need to get my thoughts out that drives me? Perhaps I write so people will understand? Maybe I am some arrogant jerk who thinks people are just standing in line to hear what I have to say? So many reasons to write, but why am I doing it?
The truth is, I am writing to learn.
About myself.
About life.
About this great big world we live in, and all the people that live on it.
In most of my friendships I am the loud one -- the spontaneous one some would say. And I love it. Love the fact that people view me as fun, that people call me up to go on adventures, that in a ever-changing world - people can count on me and my ever-present smile. But it takes a lot of energy being that person. Every morning I put on the mask, its part of my routine: get in the shower, brush your teeth, fix your hair, put on that smile. And I walk out my door with that smile plastered to my face, ready to face the big scary world. Fearless -- but lying.
I am scared. Scared of the future. Scared to love. Scared to be hurt. Scared to fail.
Scared to learn.
But now I am saying enough is enough. The courage will grow from knowledge and faith. Knowledge that I can embrace the future, love deeper, feel something real, fail and try again. But most importantly I will concur the fear of learning. I will learn about myself. I will learn about life. I will learn about this great big world, and all the people that live here. I will learn openly.
I will learn freely.
Is it the need to get my thoughts out that drives me? Perhaps I write so people will understand? Maybe I am some arrogant jerk who thinks people are just standing in line to hear what I have to say? So many reasons to write, but why am I doing it?
The truth is, I am writing to learn.
About myself.
About life.
About this great big world we live in, and all the people that live on it.
In most of my friendships I am the loud one -- the spontaneous one some would say. And I love it. Love the fact that people view me as fun, that people call me up to go on adventures, that in a ever-changing world - people can count on me and my ever-present smile. But it takes a lot of energy being that person. Every morning I put on the mask, its part of my routine: get in the shower, brush your teeth, fix your hair, put on that smile. And I walk out my door with that smile plastered to my face, ready to face the big scary world. Fearless -- but lying.
I am scared. Scared of the future. Scared to love. Scared to be hurt. Scared to fail.
Scared to learn.
But now I am saying enough is enough. The courage will grow from knowledge and faith. Knowledge that I can embrace the future, love deeper, feel something real, fail and try again. But most importantly I will concur the fear of learning. I will learn about myself. I will learn about life. I will learn about this great big world, and all the people that live here. I will learn openly.
I will learn freely.
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